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..I love my new job!:)

Nagu.I.never.dreamed.home.could.end.up.where.I.don't.belong.I'm.moving.on.

I was a while since I wrote anything here, but now I think it is time to tell you a little bit about the place were I grew up.

Nagu (Nauvo in finnish) is a little place in the archipelago of Åboland (Turunmaa in finnish) in the south of Finland. It is like an island, not that big, but not that small either, and there are around 1600 people living there, and everybody know eachother.

In te winter it is kind of a cold and dark place. Not much to do, not much to see. In hte summer the place is wonderful, it's paradise! There are alot of turists coming there from all over the country and all over the world. We have the nicest archipelago in Finland (at least in my opinion).





I have always loved Nagu and the fact that everybody know eachother, it's like a big family! I ahven't lived there for like 6 years now, but I miss the place, my friends and so on..the sad part is, my friends does not seem to miss me as much.

For like 1-2 months ago I went there with a friend for the opening of Najaden. Najaden is a boat that is a pizzeria at daytime, and in the evening it turns into a pub..I love it! It is SO Nagu! It is a popular place and it is a really nice feeling there..or was.

Well, we got there and I have told her about my friends and that I was so happy that I would finally meet them again. Well..I tried to talk to people but it seemed like I didn't exist. There was not many people who said hallo, and no one seemed to care..or there was 2 girls that i know who lives in Pargas (Parainen in finnish) that i went to school with who talked to me, my ex boyfriend also talked to me and hes girlfriend too(the other one didn't aswer my text message and he didn't seem to be there). The ones who kind of talked to me like I was a real person from Nagu were the bartenders, and I don't even know them that well!!

I got really disappointed..I didn't think people had that easy to forget friendship. For me, friendship is something that is always there, even if you don't meet in many many years! It got me thinking..am I that easy to forget as a friend? or haven't I ever been an important person in peoples lives. For me, Nagu and the people in it are very important. Even if I don't call people every second of the day, I think about them..it sure seemed that no one had thought about me at all.

I got both angry and sad. But hey, if you have to be there to be someone, then why even bother? I am still the same person, maybe a bit older, a bit more secure in myself, but I have not forgotten anybody, and I never will. I don't know if I have to be that insecure person who takes crap to be loved, but I wont be that person, I have grown to much since that. I love myself now, and I was hopeing others would to.


This is kind of how i feel, or felt. Rascal flatts says it so well in their song "moving on".

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone




But I never dreamed home could end up where I don't belong, I'm moving on..